It’s been a bit of a mixed bag recently, the snow has finally cleared and we are able to start planning the year ahead.
No matter how positive I am feeling, I always seem to struggle at the beginning of the event season, I miss the planning and sitting down with the calendar working out which events we should aim for… This year however as I watched all the posts of plaiting up and event reports, I was heading into hospital to have an epidural injection under sedation. I was quite nervous as I haven’t had an operation since I had my tonsils out at 5 years old. I needn’t have worried as the wonderful staff at Ashford hospital were absolutely amazing and I was out by lunchtime, with strict orders of at least three days off!!
I am now on day 3 and I am happy to say that apart from climbing the walls and keen to get going I am feeling better… I know it will be a few weeks before I really know for sure!!
My horses have all been very good and coped well with the recent enforced breaks, especially Tolón, who I’m happy to say has really started to fill out and has even grown a few inches.. I have introduced him to the tarpaulins and he’s now had a saddle on too… we’ve been taking baby steps and I am so excited to start really working with him this spring.
So lastly I end with a nod to Mother’s Day last Sunday, being a horsey mummy is often a challenge, it’s a juggling act we choose but it’s certainly not easy all the time!! I am so lucky to be able to work with my own Mum and this certainly helps, but keeping Aaron happy without any childcare assistance can be rough on him. He’s grown up surrounded by horses but often has to make sacrifices too… instead of baking with mummy or tucked up warm at home, he is wrapped up in the car or playing my phone under a horse rug!!
I have also struggled occasionally too, it’s a big change becoming a mummy, you feel the old you drifting away and you beat yourself up for not being a good Mum. You feel like people judge you for not competing or riding 5 horses a day anymore, but it seems they quickly forget that the years of knowledge do not just vanish because you are not currently out proving yourself. Being a mum has definitely made me more understanding, more patient and certainly a more mature person. Aaron has turned my life upside down but I wouldn’t have it any other way, so to all horsey mums that also have this balancing act down to a fine art.. you are awesome!!!!0 Comments